The Shadow

Never take time to look back
Never realise how much he had done for me
Another trip back to INTEC
and my dad sent me to the bus station
it was just like a routine and i am so used to it
But he never stop worrying
His reminder never stop
"Hey, make sure you have everything in your luggage"
"yes~"
"Are you sure this is the bus?Don't enter the wrong one"
"Dad, i know, i will wait here,you go to work, i will be ok"
"I will wait here until the bus comes"
"well then"
"Dad, the bus is coming, you go first"
"Are you sure this is the bus?"
"Yeah, I am sure"
He grabbed the ticket and headed for the ticket vendor in the bus and asked again.
Then ,he felt satisfied and let me enter
I never understand why he is so worried.
 And i entered, he didn't leave
Until the bus started to move then only he turned away
I looked at his shadow

All of a sudden,
I wanted to tell him how much i appreciate everything he had done for me.
I know he always put my safety as priority
but he never tell how much he care about me.

Daddy is a business man,
to earn money, he works very hard
under the hot sun the whole day,

He get tense up easily and started to become bad tempered
He need more rest, he ordered us to do things for him of course
If we are not fast enough, he started to get angry and scolded

But i know all come from stress

But i know he is controlling but sometimes he failed
I know he is not so high educated and still for the family
He had to work hard
I can see the sweat rolling down
everytime he come back from work
He was so use to it
After the whole day under the sun, he get tired.

i ever wanted to tell my dad,
dad, just rest and enjoy your life, i will take care of your life,
i will earn enough money. i want you to live happily
but i know i still have long way to go before i can have the ability to earn enough money
i want to say that to you so much
i am waiting for the day to come, but now, the only word i can say is
"dad, i really understand, i know why you behave in such a way,
i do know that you feel sorry everytime you have argument with mum,
you scolded us, you hit brother because of his naughtiness or the vague words that accidentally comes out due to angriness,

i remember how close we are we i am still that small little girl and you always carry me in your hand when we go travelling

i always bear in mind i am who i am today because you raise me,
 i do and i always want to tell you how much i appreciate everything you have done,
now i can only say i love you dad!

i hope the day comes and i can tell you how much i care about you
and how much i hope i can ask you to stop workin,
 just rest and enjoy your life"

i shall never forget your shadow, when you turn and leave me in the bus station~

that is life~

people entering and leaving you in your life,unaware how much memories you all share, as time flies, but still, keep the best memories between each other, you can keep the feeling to yourself, you can express your appreciation, or you can shed your tears, but never forget to go on with your life, more and more waiting ahead for you to explore~

love is simple

when i want to love and don't want to have burden, i wil just love~ if you ask do i expect anything?i don't

out of comfort isn't a bad thing

God move me out of the comfort, i expose to all the terrible feeling, i fall and i learn, i cried and weep, but learning in progress, now i know and He give me the best gift ever~

passer by?

people come into ur life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritualty.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for a reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvinient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die, sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a season, because your turn has come to share, grow and learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.But for a reason.

Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things that you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant~

Forgiveness

Realistic is unbearable.
When you realise your friends betray you,when you realise he never true to you
when you realise what he told you was full of lie
You despondent,you hesitate what is the truth of friendship.
Still, you blessed him all the best.
Because you know that somehow anyway,he brought you fun.

Treat him as always because you have a good heart.
You never fail to hold your principle
Treat all just the same.
He will realise one day how wrong he was.

You have a generous heart.
Accept his apology.
Have faith in yourself.
No one can hurt you if you do no wrong.
Protective shell is unnecessary.
Dare to explore,dream and discover.
Life full of challenge.
And remember be determined and strong
Life and obstacle teaches you to grow up into a mature person.
Know how to be tham master of butterfly in your stomach
No fear.
No worries.