Relay for life

What Relay for life means for me?

In fact, it should be a chance to meet community who equally passionate about finding an end of cancer to our lifetime...

It should be time for us to gather together to laugh, cry and creating lasting memories..

Relay for those who mean a whole world to you......

Nevertheless....

Throughout the whole event, 

Relay seemed to be an activity that I have to join just because it is annual college event

I even overslept in the afternoon....

And I miss the Luminaria ceremony......

The truth is that silent night while I life walking on track around the luminaria bags and candles

I come to realize I am actually here for something

It is a night dedicated for those who battled for cancer

to relay for my grandma and all

My grandma was the warrior that fight for cancer till the very last moment

We know she will leave us soon or later, with the sparkling hope that miracle will happen

She knows there is no chance

But little did we know that she merely hope that she can hold on to her current condition 

till New Year ended

She said that is the least she can do 

Till the very end moment, the only thing she cared was all about us...

She wanted to make sure we have a prosperity year, with luck and happiness....

She said she wanted to fight till the end..

She was strong

And I wish I could be just like her

She was beautiful in her heart

I know she had a tough life in her young age

She survived through war with my grandpa,

migrated from China to Malaysia

worked as a mechanics 

She always told me that "手停口停" in cantonese

And insisted on she had * 断掌* palm off, so this was her fate

And she might be sad that I inherited that * palm off * as well though I never believe in that

She always insisted on doing things by herself though we hope that she can rest more

The lap around the track seemed long enough for me to reminisce those moments together for 17 years we spent together

I remember we used to stroll around garden compound late at night

I used to be so * jealous* of my grandma that she saw meteor few times but I never though we were looking at the same sky and she was sitting  just next to me....

And I always miss her cooking and the aroma that only she can create

And I always hold on to my promise that I will be a good doctor

Thanks for making me feel so loved all the times....

I was quite surprised that I didn't cry that 2 o' clock in the midnight when my dad banged in and told me that she just left..may be I was so mentally prepared that it will happen...

Instead, I stunted.......it was just right after New Year

It was just too soon....

Relay.....

It was the night that every scene just conjured up so vividly in my mind

as in It was just happened yesterday

The first time I saw my dad and my aunt crying..... 

I believe Relay for life has been an inspiring journey for me and many others

Thanks for giving me a chance to celebrate lives of people who have battled cancer

remembered love one lost 

and fight back against cancer.....