How it goes....

I won't say definite NO to everything 

but i will see how it goes...

Relay for life

What Relay for life means for me?

In fact, it should be a chance to meet community who equally passionate about finding an end of cancer to our lifetime...

It should be time for us to gather together to laugh, cry and creating lasting memories..

Relay for those who mean a whole world to you......

Nevertheless....

Throughout the whole event, 

Relay seemed to be an activity that I have to join just because it is annual college event

I even overslept in the afternoon....

And I miss the Luminaria ceremony......

The truth is that silent night while I life walking on track around the luminaria bags and candles

I come to realize I am actually here for something

It is a night dedicated for those who battled for cancer

to relay for my grandma and all

My grandma was the warrior that fight for cancer till the very last moment

We know she will leave us soon or later, with the sparkling hope that miracle will happen

She knows there is no chance

But little did we know that she merely hope that she can hold on to her current condition 

till New Year ended

She said that is the least she can do 

Till the very end moment, the only thing she cared was all about us...

She wanted to make sure we have a prosperity year, with luck and happiness....

She said she wanted to fight till the end..

She was strong

And I wish I could be just like her

She was beautiful in her heart

I know she had a tough life in her young age

She survived through war with my grandpa,

migrated from China to Malaysia

worked as a mechanics 

She always told me that "手停口停" in cantonese

And insisted on she had * 断掌* palm off, so this was her fate

And she might be sad that I inherited that * palm off * as well though I never believe in that

She always insisted on doing things by herself though we hope that she can rest more

The lap around the track seemed long enough for me to reminisce those moments together for 17 years we spent together

I remember we used to stroll around garden compound late at night

I used to be so * jealous* of my grandma that she saw meteor few times but I never though we were looking at the same sky and she was sitting  just next to me....

And I always miss her cooking and the aroma that only she can create

And I always hold on to my promise that I will be a good doctor

Thanks for making me feel so loved all the times....

I was quite surprised that I didn't cry that 2 o' clock in the midnight when my dad banged in and told me that she just left..may be I was so mentally prepared that it will happen...

Instead, I stunted.......it was just right after New Year

It was just too soon....

Relay.....

It was the night that every scene just conjured up so vividly in my mind

as in It was just happened yesterday

The first time I saw my dad and my aunt crying..... 

I believe Relay for life has been an inspiring journey for me and many others

Thanks for giving me a chance to celebrate lives of people who have battled cancer

remembered love one lost 

and fight back against cancer.....

Little Evil Angel

2 and a half years ago, I knew this girl from ＂非死不可＂ and we became roommates.  The very first expression on her was " What a hyperactive girl!" 

To me, she is stubborn! * same as me* But, cute in her way.....

She always know what is best for herself but still she put others as priority.

Still remember, she know she is sick but still insist on going for CG just because of promises.

To me, she is naive! But, she always know when to do the right thing and she has justice by her side. 

She sees the poor, she knows they might cheat on her, but still she gives a penny.

To me, she teases a lot! Bit, deep inside I know she always know the best way to love people.

Sometimes, she find herself weak but I always think that she is a stronger person than what you thought

Because a strong person is not someone who never get hurt

but someone that let everyone enter her life and accept any chance that she might get hurt...

Knowing well that only by open yourself to people, you give people a  chance to love and beloved......

And love is the strongest power you have......

God knws well how you touch my life most of the time without even u realizing it!

* never forget mosquito repellent story......

And most importantly....whenever every single action of yours are with good initiative....whatsoever you change, my door will never close for you... because I can always see the best in you and hehe....how can I let go of the *little evil angel*

Learn

Learn to love your routine

Happy with small little stuffs.......

Start Accepting Stop Expecting

-Accept people and situations the way they are. No-one and no situation is perfect. Accept them anyways. Love your friends, love your situation, love every little thing about your self and your life and accept the shortcomings. In accepting we stop expecting. Expectation only brings about sadness and regret. Both not very happy emotions. No expectation means no regret, no sadness. Acceptance paves the way for immense happiness everyday

Love and share

Sometimes, you go to where people need you...

The things you do together

The happiness you share

means more than getting things you have lust on....

feel

I feel

because I am human...

Happy Ending

I love happy ending...

but things just go wrong

only if she starts to learn how to think for others

and only if she starts to lower her ego....

i know things will go wrong

and i will just stand away....

i know it is selfish to say this

but if it is not for you

i will definitely leave

but i know it is my promise to you....l

Apologise

Be apologise of what you have done

But never apologise of who you are.....

just you and yourself

Never depends on anyone

Because if you fall

U still have to learn to stand by yourself

because life is cruel....

I admire...

I admire you

because you are always the angel who appear in my life no matter what happened

since the day you become my twins

I learn not to be selfish

I learn to be fair to everyone around me

I learn if friendship is your weakest point

then you are the strongest person in your life

I admire you 

because you are just like the "superhero" 

since the day you become my roomate

I learn to be strong, and independent

because I know you learn things from hard way

and you never give up

I admire you

because you are the pure one

Since the day we start having same thought

we tell each other no matter what

you let me know that things change and just know that you are living your life

so do stupid things, never feel bad to bow on others, be kind and just do it even there is no appreciation, expect nothing

because things you do means more than that

because you are blessed 

I admire you

because you are the one who care about me the most

since the day u appeared in my life

you never stop loving me

You let me know that love is the power

the power never fade and never fail to save you from the worst pit you can ever fall for

so I always bear in mind, be loved and love all around you!

I admire you 

because you are the one with the listening ear

and you are always humble and keep emotion to yourself

since the day you become my " father"

You never feel tired of listening to all my story

You let me know that there is an audience

who wait to listen more from you

So, stay alive!

Do what you have to and live life to no regret.

I admire you

because you are the one who know the reality of life

since the day talked about the beauty of the world

You make me stop living in my small petite compound

Life is too short to worry 

So discover more about life

and just see the world!

I admire and I love...

because to me, all of you are the best of the best