Never realise how much he had done for me
Another trip back to INTEC
and my dad sent me to the bus station
it was just like a routine and i am so used to it
But he never stop worrying
His reminder never stop
"Hey, make sure you have everything in your luggage"
"yes~"
"Are you sure this is the bus?Don't enter the wrong one"
"Dad, i know, i will wait here,you go to work, i will be ok"
"I will wait here until the bus comes"
"well then"
"Dad, the bus is coming, you go first"
"Are you sure this is the bus?"
"Yeah, I am sure"
He grabbed the ticket and headed for the ticket vendor in the bus and asked again.
Then ,he felt satisfied and let me enter
I never understand why he is so worried.
And i entered, he didn't leave
Until the bus started to move then only he turned away
I looked at his shadow
All of a sudden,
I wanted to tell him how much i appreciate everything he had done for me.
I know he always put my safety as priority
but he never tell how much he care about me.
Daddy is a business man,
to earn money, he works very hard
under the hot sun the whole day,
He get tense up easily and started to become bad tempered
He need more rest, he ordered us to do things for him of course
If we are not fast enough, he started to get angry and scolded
But i know all come from stress
But i know he is controlling but sometimes he failedI know he is not so high educated and still for the family
He had to work hard
I can see the sweat rolling down
everytime he come back from work
He was so use to it
After the whole day under the sun, he get tired.
i ever wanted to tell my dad,
dad, just rest and enjoy your life, i will take care of your life,
i will earn enough money. i want you to live happily
but i know i still have long way to go before i can have the ability to earn enough money
i want to say that to you so much
i am waiting for the day to come, but now, the only word i can say is
"dad, i really understand, i know why you behave in such a way,
i do know that you feel sorry everytime you have argument with mum,
you scolded us, you hit brother because of his naughtiness or the vague words that accidentally comes out due to angriness,
i remember how close we are we i am still that small little girl and you always carry me in your hand when we go travelling
i do and i always want to tell you how much i appreciate everything you have done,
now i can only say i love you dad!
and how much i hope i can ask you to stop workin,
just rest and enjoy your life"
i shall never forget your shadow, when you turn and leave me in the bus station~
